I hate summer

I hate summer. Hate is a really strong word for me, for i rarely use it in any serious way. I might dislike the Patriots or Florida football, but I dont hate them. They are people, too...blah, blah, blah... but... I hate summer. I dont like heat. I dont really like sun, except when its like 65 degrees and sunny. I grew up in a house with no Air Conditioning...NONE..no window units. Just box fans, which actually work very well when you are in front of it. Kinda noisy though... So when it gets warm in the house, it brings back those memories. (kinda drifting on abt 3 different subjects here in my mind, so bear with me). Back to the summer thing.... It just gets a notch too warm here some days in July and August. But like i said before, it isnt very often, and its enough for a good variety in experience. Definitely not like Phoenix or Oklahoma. But I think that my problem is mental. If i lived here in this house and we didnt have a heat pump, and it got warm, i'd adapt and be cool (Ha!)  with it. Open the windows at night and circulate air through it. No problem, But since i know i have AC capability, it bothers me. At any rate, AC man coming at 1 today. problem resolved, and I can quit having Ryles wake up in the middle of the night complaining about being hot (which it realy hasnt been over the past several day, just a couple of days last week) when it is 77 degrees in her room. kinda funny though...Ryles cannot be even remotely warm, while at the same time I-Man is in the same room with a blanket, sheet AND comforter on top of him sound asleep. Its been 74 to 75 degrees in the house over the past few days...comfortable to me, Jessica and I-man it seems. AC man will fix the issue and allow me to get it down to 72ish at bedtime so i wont have to hear the whining. Funny how your focus changes when you have kids. Everything you do is essentally for them, even if indirectly. For those of you reading this who have kids, you know exactly what I mean. For those of you who have kids on the way, i can just smile as i keep thinkin that you have no clue how much things will change.

At any rate, yesterday I-Man and Ryles learned what "f" and "p" means. Kinda funny when you think about how remedial that is to me, yet how important that actually is in music. Kinda like driving a car...ever think about how much we dont even think about what we are doing while driving? I was thinking while driving yesterday how much goes into driving my manual car. How i actually do while turning at a stop sign, shift through the turn..and its like all this stuff going on at the same time, and I am listening to some song thinking about something else and not even thinking abut the several things both hands and feet are doing at the same time. kinda weird.

but anyway, I hate summer because it just seems to be kinda unstructured and drifty. Fall, winter and spring revolve around school, football and other stuff. There are events that happen every year and i like that. Summer always seems to be boring to me, and while I do plan things and do stuff, it still seems haphazard. Plus its like...hot out in the sun. And it just seems to magnify the fact that my closest friends are all many hours away. (yeah yeah, I know...a couple of you are within 30 minutes)...which is just the way it is, and will always be. Sigh...