The most beautiful discovery true friends make is that they can grow separately without growing apart. -Katherine Mansfield
This weekend is a weekend I always have somewhat mixed feelings about...for it is a weekend I often see people I dearly miss... more people I wish were still around to see more often.... people I could care less about...and... well i am always saddened by the thought of people I dont see.
I never do the Alumni Band thing. I always get a sense that some peole see me as being snobby by not doing alumni band. But...my reasons are somewhat personal, and has nothing to do with the activity or the fact that people doing it might find it fun. I simply am not one to spend my fleeting moments that I have left in my lifetime making smalltalk with anyone I dont really want to make small talk with. By that, I mean the random sax player you never really liked but you tolerated while in school, who you have no interest in knowing what it is they are doing, what their family is doing, or whatever. Now, I realize that these same people may feel the same about me...and well..in case you havent figured it out, I dont care what they think. I never have and never will. Kinda harsh...but I dont have anymore time to waste. I hope that I will be able to see those I truly care about, even if it is to say "hey", get a hug and whatever. I think that what i find ironic is that I give far more thought to these type of events than most people realize, and have given up thinking that they will even come close to my hopes, whatever those might actually be. And yes, while I might have more time to chew the fat with Lisa and TJ and their son in Alumni Band, there are a lot of other people i dont want to spend my now precious time dealing with. Yep, some people would be cool to mini chat with, but there are always the people who want to re-live their college role as the "Hey-look-at-me-act-a-fool-and-say-silly-stuff-blah-blah-blah" and that will just only serve to annoy me. And I aint feeling being annoyed anymore.
Along similar lines friends are coming to town and I know that many factors will play into the time spent with them being way too short...travel time, gametime, etc. I already have resigned myself that as much as I have looked forward to seeing old friends, that this year will be a wash. I-Man has a soccer match at 10am in Easley and it lasts an hour. While I will be at Brooks with people who are staying with me, by the time the kids would arrive, the game will be starting. I dont know if the twins will even make an appearance at Brooks this year for Homecoming. Who knows... but we shall see... I guess if it was THAT important, I'd get off my high horse and be more outgoing, huh?
3 comments:
I have those same exact thoughts so I don't think it is "snobby" of you to feel that way. I am sad because I may not be able to go this year, being 9 month pregnant and all. I will miss seeing certain people that I only see at homecoming - Andrea, Tarik, Erik, Jaime, Lisa, and TJ - to name a few. There is always next year, I guess. It makes me a little sad, but life goes on.
Jerome,
Totally agree Jerome. Not to mention Tiger Band just is not the same from when we were there. Every time they take the field, all I can do is complain to Elizabeth about all the wrong things they do now. So if I'm complaining about it every week, then why do I want to be a part of that. They can also forget about me giving to CUTBA until I see some major changes.
Wow... My sentiments exactly. I cherish my Tiger Band memories, and that experience had a profound impact on my life, but, when I left, I left. I was done. It is little more than a curiosity now, in a way. I do tend to miss it terribly, but I am not a "dweller," and I do not intend to pine over what was.
On a side note, congratulations Brandy!
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